The space of enoughness

In this fast paced world we always run, run for more of whatever we think we are lacking, the race never ends because when we upgrade we want something else instead.

Recently I've caught myself in thoughts of never enoughness in my life, "only if I have a job that pays better or different job", "only if I could live in a forest with lake", "only if I have my art studio and 8 hours a day to paint", "If I have a smaller house i would have less cleaning" ble ble ble.... So I've decided to look up closely at this thinking patter as it was definitely not something that was serving me and those thoughts were coming really unconsciously as I am a huge practitioner of gratitude every day - being completely honest I even judged myself for having those thoughts!

That minute, I stayed with this feeling, forgave myself and he decision was made - i will see a miracle in everything I ALREADY have - 10 times more than I used to.

At the same time when I was studying 8 limbs of yoga - in second one niyama around the topic of santosha - contentment, there was this beautiful quote:

"Santoshais an agreement of faith that we make with our Divine Self. This faith fastens us to the peace that abides in our hearts, no matter what the fates bring. By this affirmation we firmly identify with our inner essence rather than with external objects. Our identification then travels with gratitude, appreciating how much we have rather than how much we want. With this attitude, all things that come and go do not have the opportunity to override our joy. –"

Nischala Joy Devi

This was my huge realisation - appreciate how much you have not how much you want... Now! Even when I actually thought I am doing that - i was still in this place of not enoughness with my actions, like buying more books even if I had plenty unread ones etc.

With this new awareness, insead of seeing my house as too cluttered, I've started to look at each item with respect and meaning, and if it didn't feel that way we gave those things away to charity, I've started seeing all the courses and books I purchased with curiosity wanting to finish or start them again to see if I can learn something new - instead of wanting more and more, money wise I started to respect every purchase instead of buying because I want and can, relationships - appreciate those already formed and in my life, giving them more attention and care, job - is alerting me to be with my son for the whole time and support my family..

With this I am not saying not to want or dream about anything, but more to be mindful - ask questions, what this means for me right now, how can I change and improve instead of feeling the lack... Reframe of what already is, a Mindfulness in its pure form.

And I truly believe if we practice that, universe will notice and give us more 🥰