"Unsubscribed" poem

Unsubscribed

Today is the day

I simply unsubscribed,

I just had to let it go.

It was hard but I unsubscribed:

From a second where my

needs are less

important than yours.

From gossip - they are them, I am me.

From assumptions, nothing is set in stone

- who I am to decide for you.

From doing things to please them,

From self -hate, I am my best friend.

From unnecessary drama - I unsubscribe.

From ego driven life,

to prove something to someone,

my life is up to me.

I also unsubscribe from

any relationship that is not pure,

if it's not light - I simply unsubscribe....

From unspoken words,

what else is left if that is taken away?

From make up and money to tell you who I am

- let my soul to show you the way.

From judgment... He is not welcomed here.

From trying to be better than everyone else,

but always better than I was yesterday.

From being perfect -

that just doesn't exist.

From the culture that runs so fast,

that won't even notice the end

line or why they run.

From life that may looks perfect to YOU-

but kills ME inside, every single day.

From autopilot that runs my life,

from thoughts that are not even mine.

It only takes a second to click

"unsubscribe" in our mind,

to let go off what we are not

and never will be, but it is

an incredibly courageous act.

Will you Unsubscribe?

This poem came to me when I was at home on a Saturday night when my husband went out to see his friends and had that weird feeling of loneliness, going on social media that time is simply not the best idea as you will only see people having fun -all of them, and I had to stay home with my child. I had loads of feelings rushed over my body but then I asked my self... Would you rather be living life of those people? Would you swap with them if you could? The simple answer was no, I would never swap into being out partying than staying with my son at home. Then I asked myself why do I feel this way? The answer was - because everyone always were saying that if you are alone, there must be something wrong with you - I could see clearly that those feeling were created by not even my thoughts, but the thoughts that were programmed in me sine childhood. It was pretty incredible to notice as before when I had those feelings I would numb them out by watching something or eating something sweet (about 5 years back even drinking it out!), everything but not thinking about it! This time I noticed it, wrote down my feelings on the paper, did yoga session with the intention of feeling it all. It worked amazing as after there was a relief.

If you ever feel like this because you have a small kids or other circumstances, please know that social days will come back, doing what we want - whenever we want, it will all come back. Unsubscribe from everything that doesn't serve you anymore right now, don't do things because society expect that from you, don't create a life for others - to show them, to prove them. Do everything just because it feels good for you. And always stop, watch and ask yourself questions before acting upon those feelings.

You are worthy <3

P.S - The poem was also inspired by the mailing list, I had mail coming very often and every time I would not read it but being annoyed by it, I didn't want to unsubscribe because I was sure it will hurt that person (even if I never meet them and it was a business account) but then I realised how much energy it takes out on me every time so then I just make a decision in my head to simply click unsubscribe... And if that's you too, click this button. If you are not reading this email anyway and getting angry every time you get it - trust me, that person would rather you unsubscribe it, and have real interested people behind instead ;)